Tuesday, January 27, 2015


So, what is it?
Will they ever know?
Or do I just continue to question?

I'm really sick of going to doctors. I guess what I mean to say is that I'm sick of feeling so lousy that I have no choice but to go to the doctor. I have to say one thing. I do have a great doctor. He's very curious and he believes me when I tell him that I feel lousy. This, however, means going for more blood tests.

Do I have any blood left?
After 18 vials...........

Evidently, my thyroid is still borderline. The autoimmune thyroiditis is in full force. Plus, the thyroglobulin ab is very high. They found a nodule in my thyroid. So now I have to go through another ultrasound and then if it's growing there's another fun test. I've been through a few of them already and the nodules just keep getting bigger. Tomorrow, if it has grown again I get to move up in the ranks of testing. What test? A biopsy. If that happens I think I'd actually be relieved. At least then I'd know why I feel the way I do. 

The problem is the symptoms are so intertwined.
I don't know if it's the thyroid or the Fibromyalgia. 

The fatigue is overpowering. I won't even count the pain because that is always with me. It's just that my hands have hurt more than usual. I don't think its the Fibro because I just feel so..........


I asked her why I can't lose weight. She stated I need to eat less calories. I told her that at, at best, I eat between 1200 and 1500 calories a day. Her advice? Go down to about 700. Do you believe that one????? She's a doctor????

I'm just tired of blood work being out of range and the endocrinologist shrugs her shoulders. 

If the nodule has grown again and nothing is done....

If she shrugs her shoulders again............

I'm going to another doctor.


Thursday, January 15, 2015


Oh, what a beautiful morning!
Oh, what a beautiful day!
I've got a wonderful feeling....
blah, blah, blah....
What a crock.

First of all, I've never been a morning person. Ever. My body just isn't set up that way. When I say that I walk into walls, I mean it.  As long as I can remember I've loved to stay up late, sleep late and  I tend to do my best thinking late in the evening.   However, 
as I entered the work force I gradually re-adjusted my body clock. My dream schedule would have been actually adding hours to the day because there never seemed to be enough. Yep, I was on hyper-drive. 

Past tense.

About 90% of the people with Fibromyalgia experience muscle stiffness in the morning. The stiffness can occur in your muscles, tendons, ligaments and joints throughout your body. I know that it takes about 15 minutes before my feet can hit the floor, There are times that it's much longer.  My back, hands, arms, legs and feet feel like the Tin Man without his oil can. It takes some time to get body parts moving. Every muscle in my body is screaming and they aren't screaming that they love me. 

The muscle rebellion is in full force.

Actually this doesn't just occur in the morning. If I sit down or have any period of time when I'm not moving, the stiffness and muscle pain hits. Sometimes I can't even walk for a few minutes because of the pain.  I feel like an old woman trying to get up and move. I probably creak too. 

The package just keeps looking better and better.

It's interesting how the pain fluctuates and radiates. The stiffness is bad in the morning and then gradually improves in the afternoon. Then it starts to return in the evening accompanied by muscles spasms. Throw in a little fatigue and insomnia and there you have my day. I spend a lot of time in the jetted tub because the swirling water helps the pain. Some days there isn't a place on my body that doesn't hurt. 

Well, I exaggerate..........maybe my eyebrows don't hurt.

All I seem to do lately is live in management mode. 

And I'm not doing a real good job of it.

Like I said.

Beautiful morning?

What a crock.

Thursday, January 8, 2015


Localized or whole body?
Freezing or sub-freezing temperatures?
Are you in?

Think for a minute. You are ready to get into a chamber to expose your body to temperatures of up to minus 250 degrees. You only wear gym attire and are given gloves for your hands and a headband for your ears. You also get a covering for your mouth.

You are supposedly safe to walk into the chamber and stay there a few minutes.
Can I say, "hell no," right now?
Hell would have to freeze over.

I've become a wimp in cold weather. I have to say that I like it much better than the weather in the summer. Temperatures in Las Vegas reach up to 115 (or greater) and you can fry that egg outside. I hate the extreme heat and I hate the cold too. I don't think I'd be up for this.

To top it all off there is a warm up process and you have cardio exercise for ten minutes to bring fresh blood into the muscles and to release the stagnant blood. See, this is where they lose me. Blood doesn't just hang around in your body. It is constantly pumped by the heart. Stagnant blood? Anyway, back to the cardio. I envision a warm up period with a warm body massage with heated oil. I have to exercise and sweat??

I'm not surprised that there have been reports of frostbite. Any moisture on your body would automatically freeze. I'm also not surprised that there are conditions that shouldn't use cryotherapy. High blood pressure, heart disease are a couple of them. I don't know about you but my blood pressure would be sky high just standing and waiting to go into the chamber!

Cryotherapy has been used in pain management for quite some time. You can freeze and deaden irritated nerves and it's also used to freeze abnormal skin cells. I understand this. It's done by physicians in a doctors office or surgery centers. 

It's stated that it helps with inflammation and chronic pain. It boosts metabolism and helps with joint pain. It improves circulation and sleep. 

Whoa.....wait just a minute.....it helps with weight loss?
That could be a game changer.....

I know that this type of therapy has been used for athletes for years. I can honestly say that i don't know if I'd try this. 

I understand it but.......

I just don't know.

Has hell frozen over?

Here is some great information:  Three levels of Cryotherapy

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

2015? REALLY?

The days turn into weeks.
Turn into months.
Turn into years.

I must be getting old because time is moving much faster than I'd like. I can't believe another year has gone by. It seems like yesterday that I was reading about the calamities of Y2K and seeing the horror of 9-11. 

Where has it gone?

On the other hand, it seems like I've been in pain forever. I know that I was a person that didn't pay attention to symptoms and aches. I just don't remember that person; she's become a blur. I've always mourned that girl but as time goes on the reminder of her is diminished and the pain girl has taken her place. 

Why is that?

Is it because I've finally gone through those dreaded stages of grief and come to the acceptance phase? That doesn't sound good to me for some unknown reason. I've always been one that fought against the status quo. Is that the reason? Am I no longer fighting? That disturbs me.

So what have I written in years past? 

"First, I resolve to be a little more accepting of me. I know, I make this resolution every year but I think I need to be reminded of this every year.  OK, so I have limitations and pain kind of reminds me on a daily basis that it's there but......... 

Next, I need to be a little kinder to my body. I know that if I push I will pay but I still do it. I want to get things DONE! It's that pesky old Type A personality that has plagued me since birth that keeps coming out but..........

Also, I need to be patient and not make myself crazy because I'm frustrated. I need to stop and think "this too shall pass." No, I'm not going to get my wonderful memory back. It falls under the category of "oh well". 

What does this tell me?

It tells me that I don't listen to myself.

I shouldn't make resolutions.

And some things just don't change.

What would I tell you?

I would tell you to have a happy new year.

Let's hope for a year of peace.

Let's all be a little kinder to each other.

(ok, I stole that from Ellen)

Here's to 2015!

Thursday, December 25, 2014


It's Christmas Day.
It's windy and cold.
Need I say more?

I love Christmas. I love the season, decorating and buying presents. The rush of the malls and finding the right gifts is just part of my joy....then there's the food. 

Fast forward.

I think I've watched The Christmas Story, The Holiday, Scrooged, Christmas Vacation and Love Actually eighty jillion times. This is the first year I didn't decorate. Heck, I didn't even pull out the tree. I spent a couple of days shopping and that was it.

It was that bad.

So, in the spirit of the day,

I can truly say,

I hope you all have a wonderful and pain free day.

Keep the good cheer,

We will look forward to next year.

So bundle up and stay in

a little whipped cream on your chin...

That's all I've got.

Have a drink.

Merry Christmas, Happy Chanukah and Seasons Greetings!!