25 Adjectives
To Describe Myself
At this Moment
Annie, at It's Time To Get Over How Fragile You Are , had a game on her blog today. As above, it's 25 adjectives to describe yourself at this moment. I thought, "cool game, I'll do it." Then I started to think about what I would say and I was, how you say, disheartened.
How do you describe yourself when your attitude is in the toilet because you feel horrible. Then I started thinking, do I want everyone to know who I really feel about myself?
Well, here I go.
Exhausted
Determined
Stubborn
Foggy
Reserved
Resigned
Confused
Loyal
Fragile
Strong
Intelligent
Computer Addict
Observant
Cynical
Spiritual
Introspective
Worried
Sarcastic
Funny
Recluse
Caring
Disheartened
Pained
Tired
Scared
Well, there I am. I think. You know what is amazing? I don't even know how to describe myself anymore. It changes from day to day, hour to hour and sometimes minute to minute.
Right now, I don't know who I am or what I want.
No, that's not true.
I want to be me again.
An interesting exercise. I shall try it when I have more of a brain. Ooo, that may take awhile.
ReplyDeleteI relate to your confusion as to who you are. I have yet to figure that out since being struck down by this disease. Yes, I feel struck down. That may not set well with some, but it is the way I feel right now...struck down and stomped on...rode hard...and put away wet.
Yep, that about covers it. But you are so, so right. All I really want is to be me again. (I wonder if I still know how to be me?)
hugs,
me,
CJ
How about Beautiful, Giving, Open, Fighter, Inspiring, Graceful.... I can think of a few more that should be in your list Rosemary!!!
ReplyDeleteI can so relate to your feelings about yourself as I have many, if not all, of the same kinds of feelings.
ReplyDeleteAnd you are right, it does change daily.
I am following your lovely blog and thank you for the blog award.
You could have been speaking of me with your reflections on how your self-description can change.
ReplyDeleteWell said, and generously shared, thank you :)
Okay Jolene.......I can ASSURE you that Graceful should not be on that list. You can't take me anywhere without me spilling something on myself!! As to the others.....thank you so much. All I see right now is poo poo.
ReplyDeleteThis illness takes so much of you. You live in an altered state.
Me too Rose!
ReplyDeleteI agree with gracefulagony though, you left out a few things!
Take good care of yourself. I would still very much enjoy talking directly to you, but I too am a bit of a recluse.
Thanks for so honestly telling us how you feel. Some days, if I told how awful I feel, I'm afraid wordpress would ban me.
Oh, this is fun! Persevering, gracious, playful, generous, humorous.
ReplyDeleteI noticed your list got a little darker, sadder, negative as you got to the very end. That would be the root canals talking! I believe Jolene and I captured the true Rose.
But this was an exercise in how you feel---just know that most of us glean a very warm and compassionate Rose. And that would be even when your teeth hurt.
Hugs and prayers for your teeth (and everything else that has been stirred up)!
CJ
You guys make me feel so much better! Friends are a wonderful thing!! Thank you, thank you..........THANK YOU!!!
ReplyDeleteXOXOXOXO